Mother's Day Celebration

This year's Mother's Day celebration was quite unusual than before for various reasons.

For the first time since I became a mother, I celebrated mother's day without my husband and toddlers (ages 3 and 2 respectively). Detailed reasons why we are separated for the moment entails another post. Although physically separated, we are emotionally and spiritually together as we try to communicate as much as we can and I always make it an effort to contact and check through modern means of communication to see how my children are. I also exert effort to visit them as much as I can in the province.

For the first time, I was working while celebrating Mother's Day. My current work enables moms to see the difference, let their child grow and make their child number 1. This mother's day, we did our best to give back to all the moms out there and make them feel they are also number 1.

For the first time my husband's greeting was one of the last that I got in the morning. It was quite ironic that I had to prompt my greeting for the people whom matters to me most - my husband and kids. My kids are still toddlers thus I rely heavily on my husband to prompt them to greet me Happy Mother's Day. For the first 3 hours in the morning, I received Mother's Day greetings from my parents, siblings, in-laws,relatives,friends,colleagues and an unexpected greeting from my ex-boyfriend! After hours of eagerly waiting for my husband's message, I got impatient thus I managed to text him how bad I felt.

I got a quick reply from my husband after my text. He even called me up to apologize and greeted me. It was quite ironic that I felt my motherly efforts were unnoticed by my own family but acknowledged by those who surrounded me. My Emotional Quotient managed to fall below expectations when I was already waiting for 3 hours - eagerly anticipating, wishing and hoping that the next text, email or wall post that I receive will already be from my husband. I was expecting that he would text early because my text messages to ask how they were and attempted calls yesterday were left unreplied nor responded to. It was quite unusual for my husband not to respond to me. Either he would respond late that same night or call you up as soon as he gets home or reply early in the morning. He managed to text me and call me after expressing to him how I felt through a text message as I was unable to control myself to keep my feelings on my own.

Despite the feeling of being unappreciated by your own family, I managed not to let it ruin my day and tried my best to understand that my husband had to wake up late for Sunday and would greet me later than expected. I managed to brush it off and told myself not to be too sensitive as who knows I might need to prepare myself - maybe next time it might be my birthday or my kids' birthday that he might forget - hahaha! Seriously I hope not.. I feel I'm just super sensitive today. Maybe if this happens to him, he might not react that much.

I watched ASAP09- one of the top Sunday noontime variety show and was mesmerized by all the beautiful celebrities that graced the show! It was my first time to watch a TV show live and I surprisingly enjoyed it. I felt drained when the show ended and tried to have group photos with my colleagues on various celebrities passing by the studio corridors. I realized that it must be difficult for these celebrities to pretend to show to the world that they are doing super great even if reality is otherwise.

I celebrated Mother's Day with an early dinner by myself in Red Ribbon Jupiter. One of my comfort place in the city. Being alone allows you to contemplate on various matters in life. I realized that no matter what happens even if sometimes you are left unappreciated, you need to be stronger for yourself and for your family. A mother cannot deny the fact that she loves her kids and husband no matter what happens. The difficulties that arise are part of the challenging yet fulfilling profession of being a mother. One needs to be more understanding, be more forgiving and be more loving.